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Monday, September 06, 2010
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GEORGE'S MEMORIAL PAGE
I am so very sorry that I had to delete Georges Memorial Book. It was getting hit hard with spam of the worst kind. One day there were 538 spam messages and I kept deleting them. I finally gave up. If you stop by please hit the contact button above the page. The message will come directly to me and not show up on this site.  My Inner Soul Never flowing before from me Now words don't seem to stop, I don't know where they come from They all just seem to drop. I sit at my computer My fingers at the keys, Not thinking of a word to say Then my mind does seize, I am no longer in control I write with all my inner soul And when I finish all I see Is all the love I have for thee, My son, George.  Ken-Dad-George(front)-Gary A Mother Wept Three sons You gave to me, Not one, not two , but three. Forty some years ago I bounced them on my knee. Never was I told You'd take one back from me. Did You not think Unhappy I would be? Did You not care, Were You not aware, That my love encompassed Every one of three? For a moment did You think That one I would not miss, And not remember every single Hug and every kiss? Nor the pleasure that he brought us When his antics did unfold And how we all were mesmerized As all his tales he told? There is a large and vacant space That dwells within my heart And it will never leave me As long as we're apart. There must have been a reason Lord That You took him away. For a little longer Could You not let him stay? I love You Lord with all my heart And now I do accept, That you have called my son George home, While I, his mother wept.  George Caught The Big One Memories In Your Red Ram We drove today in your dodge red ram, I thought of you all the while. I felt so close being in your truck, You cared for it like it was your child. I want you to know that dad keeps it clean And polishes it every day. Because we know that you treasured it so, You would want it to be that way. We couldn't sell it to a stranger George, Because it belonged to you. So we made the decision And did what we had to do. We kept it son and drive it each day, Wishing you were at the wheel. But since you can't be, Since God took you home, It's a part of you that we feel, While driving your dodge red ram.  My Son, My Baby Boy 'Twas forty short years ago When, I first heard his cry, This tiny boy with golden hair And large blue twinkling eyes. Just forty short years ago, 'Twas a pleasure to hear his cry And the child grew to become such a man, Only to die! Only to die! The grave now covered with leaves And flowers strewn about. The headstone black that holds his name Forever I shall feel without. He was the most wonderful son And so filled my heart with joy. Oh, how I miss the man, my son, The child, my baby boy.  George-Gary-Dad-Ken Since You've Gone I never feel the sun. I never feel the rain. All I feel is pain Since you've gone. My son I miss you so, I never thought you'd go Before me. The precious years you spent with me I'll cherish for all eternity. You are so loved. You are so missed.  George and Alex Black Jeans He always wore his black jeans, With a hole tore in the knee, They seemed to be his favorite pair His friends would all agree. Although new jeans he owned, From gifts we gave to him, It seemed these were his favorite, He looked so tall and trim. "These are my work jeans", he would say "They are comfy in every way." Then there they were on him again When it was not a working day. I still have those black jeans with me And touch them every day. It was the last thing that he wore Before he went away.  Easter Dinner-His Favorite Place To Be-Our Home The Grieving Place The darkness of this night confounds me. The light of day is what I seek. For all around the night astounds me. I feel myself now growing weak. What is this heavy veil that's dropping, Over me to shroud me in? I don't know how this darkness found me. I feel it from my soul within. A dark and heavy fog now drapes Around and over me this day. I'm caught within, cannot escape. It is the predator and I'm the prey. The mourning fog moves my way And now my wailing does begin. The memories of happier days, Stabs my heart and soul within. There is no passage in my sight. No door or gate that I might leave. No windows here to let in light. This is the place that I must grieve.  Buddies-George-Alex I'll Cry Tomorrow
Today
the sun is shining.
I smell the roses,
but do not
touch the thorns.
I linger by the tall Oak tree,
yet am wary of the ivy
climbing along it's trunk.
Gazing at the deep blue sea
the seagulls seem to speak
to me.
I would reply
if I could
but I just smile,
careful to not
stumble on the rocks.
While droplets fall
from clouds above,
they slide down my face
quenching the dryness
of my sad soul.
The sun reappears
sending warm rays,
regenerating the life
that I had set aside
for sorrow.
I will be happy
if just for today.
I will cry tomorrow.
 The Golden Cord Together at birth Mother and child The cord gets severed And then it is tied. Separated now Physically it's true Emotionally connected For life to you. Mother and child Forever do bind Heart and soul Forever entwined. The thread then turns golden Connecting forever Mother and child It's their last endeavor. Eternity spent With Our Savior and Lord Eternally entwined On that thin golden cord.  George-Alex-hanging out A Thin Wall I only had to look at him to smile. He wore his feelings on his sleeve Some things he couldn't hide., To laugh ,to smile ,to have some fun, He always was the one To bring some humor to my life My heart he always won. And when he wasn't feeling well I wanted to be there. To let him know I loved him To let him know I cared. And if perhaps I was the one Not feeling well one day, I'd never have to tell him My fears he would allay. Today still he is calming me And I am calming him, The wall that comes between us Is so very thin. I feel his presence everywhere And talk with him each day, So never will I feel alone, If only he could stay. We'll meet again one day. We'll meet again one day.  Mom-Ken-George-Gary Black Ocean Of Tears My tears fall non stop. Great sorrow fills my soul. Will these tears ever cease? Will I ever stop missing you? Since the day that I lost you Not once has the sorrow paused. Tears form into a puddle. A puddle that grows, and grows Ending in a black ocean of tears. Full of sorrow, Full of fears, And so, do I stay in this dark ocean? Will I move on in time? Or will this be my residence for life? On this black Ocean of tears.  George-Laura-Ken-Mark Waiting At The Gate (sonnet) When I recall the days of fleeting past, The times of laughter; joy amidst our love, I should have known that it would never last; That God was making plans from up above. The future to me wasn't then so clear. How could I know that soon there would be void; That everything I ever held so dear In one swift second then could be destroyed. From whence did come this dark and evil scourge Which banished one that all of us loved so? If only I had known; if I could purge with all my might the cruel insidious foe. But it was not for me to plan his fate, For God was waiting for him at the gate.  Dad Carves-George Tests Turkey Day I Recall His Love When I recall the sweet sound of his voice And how he wrinkled up when he would smile, I feel a deep and sorrowful despair And stop to linger on these thoughts awhile. Then tears begin to spill as I reminisce How he would walk into the house with joy, And kiss me on the cheek to say hello As he had done since he was just a boy. And so I feel a tugging at my heart, That tells me he is gone forevermore. My sorrow pulls me down into this pit Of hell where I have never been before. Yet, I feel His loving arms encompass me, And I know my son's with Him eternally  Patriots Thy Will Be Done I always end in prayer "Thy will be done" With praying, this I do so fearfully. For I know changes made are soon to come. The choices made with which I won't agree. But who am I to question Gods' desire, Does our entire life He not inspire? And should He see the changes for the good, Then who are we to say they not be so? For God in all His wisdom and His grace, Knows how to change our life from this fast pace And slow us down so that we understand, That all the universe is in Gods' hand. So now I say again so fervently, Thy will be done Lord, I pray on bended knee.  Vacation in Michigan The Night Was Long It was night when I did know That time was passing by so slow And neither did it go from me, It seemed like years, So many, many tears. Will morning come at all? It seems to me that grieving so Does make the nightime go so slow And will this grieving ever end, Will morning ever come again? And if a night is like a year And I do shed so many tears, Will morning then bring peace to me Or will this night just stay with me?  Just Waking Up When ? A breeze a flutter a sound, I quickly turn around. A mystical presence I feel, Could this be real? My shoulder feels a brush, My arm a gentle tug, Could it be you? I pray that it's true. And then the words form In my mind so clear. "Mom I love you so Don't shed another tear" It's you my son, I clearly know And tell you that I love you so. I'll wait until you come again When?  Buddies-Mark-George-Ken-Gary He Forever Holds Me If sorrow sets upon my shoulder And down lifes path does follow me, I fear not as days grow colder, For God our Lord will set me free. If clouds and storms do come upon me, Then I tremble not, for not it stays. God our Lord will never leave me, He stays with me throughout my days. And when strong winds upon me sway, I know that He will help me bear. I weaken not, it does not stay, As I am always in His care. Then when the bright sun shines through, I soak in the warmth that God has sent And know that He forever holds me, Close to Him.  Mom-Joanna-George-Ken-Gary Just Today It's been a year since I have seen The sweet smile of my son. It's been too long since I have felt The bright rays of the sun. But just today, I felt the love Of Jesus, God's own son. It's been a year since you have seen A smile upon my face.. It's been too long since I have felt My loving sons embrace. But just today I felt the love Of Gods eternal grace. It's been a year since my eyes Have not shed a tear. It's been too long since I have felt Your love, It's been a year. But just today my Lord above He wiped away each tear.  Dad-Mom_George Nothing To Lose The joy of the dance has gone out of my soul, The beat of the drum disappeared. The sweet harmony that my heart always heard, Has turned old and now wears a beard. For sorrow has set deep inside of my being And nothing appears as it should. When sadness took over the life I had known, I tried to go on best I could. The music has left the sweet smile on my face, The look of depression set in. Then what will it take for this sorrow to leave And again on my face wear a grin? Nothing can bring back the joy that I had, Or the love that once I had known. Never again will my life be the same, My sadness is now etched in stone. Faith in my God I never shall lose, I still grieve my son, always will. Though I do love you, my Savior and Lord, My happiness now has been stilled. So I'll fill my soul with all of Your love Till there's no more room for the pain. I'll trust You Lord to see me through, I have nothing to lose, all to gain.  Cowboys-Gary-George-Ken Searching For The Light Lonely down the road of sorrow; Unsure of the route to take. Desperate for peace and comfort Through the night I lie awake. Dark and fearful is my journey Through the nightmares that unfold, Long and narrow is the path now And so heavy is my load. Suddenly a clear light shining. A beacon on my frightful way, Could this really be salvation? Will my fear be held at bay? No more blinded by my sorrow I no longer stand alone, Hands clasped tight in recognition Of the Light that I’ve been shown. Now I travel on my journey Faith to guide me as I go, Cradled in a new contentment Bathed within its afterglow. My heart, now full of hope and reaching To the son that slipped away Whispering how much I miss him And how we’ll meet again one day.  Santa George Sorrowful Tears (villanelle) Sorrowful tears of heaven slowly fall on me. Sadness fills my heart and soul this day. He is no longer here and nevermore shall be. Why did this happen, how did this come to be? Now with a heavy heart I kneel to pray. Sorrowful tears of heaven slowly fall on me. There was a time when my heart felt so free. But that was another time, another day. He is no longer here and nevermore shall be. My mind goes back in time, in memory. Of happy days when we would laugh and play. Sorrowful tears of heaven slowly fall on me. But God had other plans for his destiny. He called my son back home to Him that day. He is no longer here and nevermore shall be. I know one day we'll meet again in eternity. But until then my grief and sorrow stay. Sorrowful tears of heaven slowly fall on me. He is no longer here and nevermore shall be.  My New Train Tattered and Torn My body is so weary, and so too my soul. We've traveled together, and we've tried to console Each other from sorrow, and our sadness so real. I never imagined, just how bad this could feel. I am so tattered and torn, and my heart is too. I am searching for strength, as I try to renew. I do pray every day, and my Lord answers me, But if the truth be known, I'm human as can be. So pain I do feel and to sadness I am prone. I wish I had not traveled this road all alone. Friends I have many, loving and kind they are too. But they don't understand, they don't know what to do. OH! How dark it can be, and how hard to climb out, Of this deep dark hole when I am so full of doubt. I'm tired of living, weary of my existence. I'm so tired of acting. I've gone the whole distance. I have played the part and I've tried to do my best. It seems to me now, I'm just not up to the test. Do you know who I am, Will you just look at me? Do you remember now, Or perhaps you can't see? No, you never do, it is I who must be strong. I cannot go on and the day is just too long. GEORGE'S PAGE TWO |
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